The Testimony of Jack
I was born fifty-one years ago in a small town in northeast
Georgia. From my earliest years I knew that I was somehow different from other
boys my age, though I didn't have the words to accurately describe myself. By
the time I was nine years old I came to admit to myself that I was a homosexual.
It was also at the age of nine that I accepted Jesus Christ as my personal
savior. At age thirteen I became involved with the Southern Baptist Church in my
hometown. I respected the Pastor very much and looked to him as a father figure,
my own father being an alcoholic that never made the effort to bond with any of
his children.
At the age of fifteen my Pastor delivered a sermon on the evils of homosexuality
in which he said that all homosexuals would spend eternity in Hell. This caused
me to question my own salvation, so I went to talk to my Pastor about this
"evil" that he had unknowingly accused me of. His response was to order me to
never darken the doorway of his church again until I had repented of my sin and
changed. He also told my parents that I was homosexual. My parents had me
committed to the state hospital for the mentally ill, where I underwent electric
shock therapy for 4.5 months in an attempt to "cure" me of my homosexuality.
Finally, I was interviewed by a female European doctor who told me that
homosexuality was not an illness. She discharged me.
My parents would not permit me to come back home because I had not been "cured".
I ended up the only student in my high school who lived in a rooming house. I
worked a full time job in addition to finishing high school. My family had
broken off all contact with me.
My adult life led me away from following the Lord. I became an alcoholic and
drug abuser. I blamed all my problems on my family's having disowned me as a
youth. I came back to the Lord as an adult when I visited a Metropolitan
Community Church in Chicago. There the Pastor taught me that I was gay because
God had created me that way and that He loved me no less than His heterosexual
children. I recommitted my life to Jesus Christ, and for the first time in my
life I can truly say that I am happy. Jesus has taken the place of my parents
and brothers who still have nothing to do with me. He is my family and my life.
Now I look upon my homosexuality as a gift from God because it has helped to
teach me not to judge my fellowman. I have been in a gay relationship with the
same man for twenty years now and have created my own family. I am very thankful
to God for his watching over me all the years that I doubted Him and did not
live for Him.
If you doubt His love for you just yield to Him and let Him take you up when all
others let you down. He can bless your life and He can serve as your family. All
you need to do is accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior and you, too, can
enter the family of God.
Jack
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